Keep replaying it over and over
in my mind, trying to decipher
the moment my feelings changed.
My reasoning sounds absurd and weak
even as I try to explain, I’m not being
evasive on purpose, everything seems surreal.
You made me feel unsure of myself.
Puzzling over why I wasn’t quite good enough.
Looking back, it seems clear to me,
you wanted cryptic words between us,
left dangling in the air for me to misunderstand.
All of the pleading, questioning, crying are
silly somehow to me, when two months ago,
the matters of my heart were life and death.
Funny how uncomplicated we become.
The realization that you could forget me,
exclude me from your life, love another,
was the slap in the face I needed to open my eyes.
I had been squeezing them closed,
not wanting to see you turn from me.
In all fairness, it was I who pursued you.
Suddenly, the unsettling course of our future
doesn’t bother me, deep down in the bottom
of my soul, I see now, I can love you as a friend.
As I would any other, and friends come and go.
@ donetta sifford 8-5-2013
Written for: Trifecta
Come and Go